I’m Not Worthy

There are a lot of people online who like to appear like they got it all together. That’s not honest. Nobody on this earth has it all together. The minute you think you're the exception then you probably suffer from pride. God hates pride and will humble those who don’t humble themselves. This is why we must keep in repentance and rely on God to lead us.

Truth is I rebelled against this knowledge. Of course, we can all get derailed from time to time. That’s why it’s important to stay in the bible and be able to recognize if you’re being led astray. So, how did my heart deceive me? By allowing me to forget who changed my life. Jesus, is the author of my faith, not me. I started to work things out on my own. In my own understanding. In my own strength. Like I could ever possibly have the ability to do enough good to be worthy before God.

Thinking I knew what’s best only pierced me with pain. Yet, that pain was good because it reminded me I was found and saved from the pain of sin and shame. Knowing that if I was enough to cover my own sin, then I wouldn’t need Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross. But I’m not enough! I’m guilty before God without adequate payment. Jesus alone is enough. He is worthy. In humility, I confess my sin is pride. I admit that I’m actually just as desperate today as the moment I met the Savior. Paul expresses the danger in allowing this to happen when writing to the Corinth church. He says, “I am afraid that as the serpent deceived Eve by his cunning, your thoughts will be led astray from a sincere and pure devotion to Christ.” (2 Corinthians 11:3) Oh, forgive me God, I don’t know best and I need you. You lead me and I will follow you. Help me trust you.

The only reason I’m able to have freedom from the shame of my sins (including pride) and rest from the difficulties of life is God’s steadfast love and faithfulness to me. It’s His mercy above all and not because I’m worthy. None of us are. Only Jesus.